Not heavy, not blindingly, but enough to make me question whether I was insane. We had somewhere to be that morning, a very important appointment. We drove up from Fredericksburg with as much haste as we could, unsure of what the day would have in store for us. Nervous. Excited. Scared and exhilarated. All of that and more.
You see, there are singular moments in your life when the universe as you know it is on the cusp of changing forever. You anticipate these moments, you know what the before and after will be like, and yet when they come to you you can only sit and stare at them in wonder, amazed that your life was ever any other way before. This was one of these moments (I’ve had five that I can identify without hesitation). Our lives would never be the same again, our fates forever rewritten and rewound as we set off on a new chapter in our lives.
Today, Katy was born and we became parents for the first time. Its been an amazing eleven years. Amazing to see how we’ve grown and changed as our family has grown and adapted. Amazing to see how our oldest has grown and developed into an individual, equal measures of temperament and influence from her mother and me, and yet recognizably different and unique. I’m so proud of the person Katy is growing up to be.
But to the fact that she’s turning eleven today? Wow. Tempered with a check to see how grey my temples are.